Saturday 10 May 2008

Haunted by the past

Another week has passed as usual. but somehow this week was tougher than the others. I don't know if it's due to my lack of knowledge or just me being the perfectionist once again. Am i expecting too much from myself again?
Is my old self haunting me yet again?

I ponder upon the past sometimes and wonder who i really am. What are the characteristics i possess that build me up to be this lady i am now? I am being over shadowed by my past or am i who i am?

Wherever i go, whatever i do, i will always think of him. Am i like him? Am i disappointing him? Am i doing the right thing? Have i ever made him proud? Where is he when i need him? Can he hear me?

Then....i'll miss him....miss him....miss him....

Tuesday 25 March 2008

No Returns

Rusted no more???

Here i am again....composing my blog after being back from Melbourne for months. Been up and about.

Finally back to where i started.... Lost~!!!

Whatever is done is done...there is no turning back and no return. Just hope for the best to come...

Tuesday 1 January 2008

Happy 2008 - A New Beginning

A very happy new year to all. It's a new beginning for me. What is my new year's resolution? Honestly, i have not really thought about it but even if i have, i am not going to list it down. It should and shall remain as a secret.
I enjoyed myself today and for the first time i celebrated new year in another country. It was kinda fun. The best thing is, we are one of the first in the world to celebrate new year before anyone else in the world. The fireworks were good. Not the best but it was good. Every fireworks is good, isn't it?

I just can't believe another year has gone by and here i am, in a new year, starting a new beginning. I will be leaving Melbourne soon and i am starting to miss Melbourne already. The friends i have made here, the family i have made here. I do miss my family back home but right now, i am seriously not looking forward to go home.

I am praying hard that i will get my PR or TR soon. And i'll be back in Melbourne for sure. I will have to miss the Australian Open Tennis 2008 for i am really broke. But i will be back here again to witness the live show next year. Wait for me.

I do have some special message i would like to send out here before i pen off.

This is specially dedicated to my cell group and everyone in MSF. I have truly enjoyed myself here in Melbourne. And to Pauline, i would not have known the Swinburne cell if it were not for you. I am really thankful and grateful to you. I really appreciate it and God Bless You for that. To Hermin, Tince and Ee Ee, i wanna thank you for the guidance, the care and the help provided when i needed it the most. I wouldn't have enjoyed myself that much if not for you all. I would have known Him if not for you all. And most of all, thanks for attending my graduation. I didn't have my own family there but i had you guys there with me and you all are my family. I really am very grateful. No words can describe how thankful i am for everything.

I pray that all of you will be blessed with everything good in this new year.

To my family back home, Happy New Year. I am coming back soon and may the year be a better year for us. To my friends, it has been great knowing all of you.

If i have done anything to hurt any of u in the past, i would like to ask for your forgiveness. I hope we can let bygones be bygones and start this year with wonderful thoughts and blessing. The sky is our limit. The best is yet to come.

God Bless.